I know how to lose the weight now. I've got a plan and its a liveable plan and it works etc etc etc. Thing is that what I really want is to keep eating whatever the hell I want to and to have that magically change from a way to gain weight to a way to lose weight.
Yeah.... somehow I don't see that happening anytime soon. I've discovered that as long as I keep high quality dark chocolate in the house I don't have a problem with chocolate. I only like the good stuff nowdays anyways and with the good stuff you can only have so much of it. So its not the cheap chocolate thats the problem now.
Its the baked goods. You know what I'm talking about. The good chit. Brownies. Cake. Cookies.
Thats right baked goods are my weakness. And you just have a little piece now.... and then another one a couple hours later.... and another one a couple hours after that.... and well you get the idea.
And its BAD. And I'm doing all sorts of other things to try to placate my cravings because I am having like crack fiend level cravings for baked goods right now folks. And I know in my head that this means that my blood sugar is on a roller coaster and if I just did a better job of eating the way I know I'm supposed to be eating then it would all be hunky dory and I wouldn't NEED sweets like this.
But here's the thing. I really, really, really like eating my baked goods. It makes me happy when I eat them. They hit my taste buds and its like the whole room lights up and I have a little mouthgasm and everything about the world is better for just a few minutes.
Don't get me wrong - I really do like veggies and protein. In fact I don't like to eat my baked goods on an empty stomach because it makes me feel like crap. But I do still very very much like to eat my baked goods too. In addition to my healthy-ish balanced diet. But clearly if I'm craving the baked goods this badly then I'm not really balancing my diet.
And lord knows I really do not need to gain any more weight. I have a whole family medical history that is a line up of why I really shouldn't gain weight.
But my brain is so screwed up right now about it that I actually had the thought train: Want baked goods! NO! No more! You have got to get in control here! You've got to start controlling your blood sugar before it controls you! .... Okay... You're right. How about we make a cake and we'll talk about it?
I may need some sort of intervention and maybe a support group or something.
OMG I WANT CAKE.
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Love baked goods! And I have so many fantastic recipes! For myself, I finally chose an absolute favorite: Chocolate Chip Cookies, a recipe I found in The Chocolate Chip Cookie Murder (a book) and adapted to better fit me. Now, if I have one cookie, with milk, every day, I'm usually able to leave almost everything else alone. I started with three cookies and worked down to two, and now one. I still have days when I splurge, but not as often.
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